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Sarah. 21 years old. Student. Sociology. Daughter. Sister. Aunt. Friend. Cat lady. Starbucks barista. Cupcake baker extraordinaire. Reader. Lover of people, places, and knowledge.

Don’t mind me, I’m just gonna go full on cat lady on all y’all and dump all of my pictures of my cats on your feed. Enjoy.

Things I think about in the research lab?

When waiting on an attractive man at work, hopefully he’ll order tea so I can say, “Here’s some hot tea for the hot-tie.” Think it’ll work?

It takes all I can do to stay focused on my life right now and not fall into sadness over what I wish it could be and hope for what it will be.

As difficult as it can be to survive the thoughts of a past of hurt, I’ve constantly been thinking about the ways these thoughts remind us of where we’ve been in comparison to where we are now.

Sometimes I think I’m still so broken and then I remember the state of my heart just a few years ago. Praise God for the then and now. For healing. For forgiveness and renewal.  For making new life out of a young girl so heartbroken. 

All to You, Jesus. Show me how to let Your glory shine in my life every day, in and out. 

I can never allow someone to love me until I fully learn to love myself.

I’m learning and growing and healing.

Psalm 34:18

He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.
And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.

Micah 6:8

Sometimes Scripture is beautifully painful. This is one of those times. 

2012

All morning I’ve been thinking about 2012 and all that it brought with it. It’s been a crazy, sorrowful, joyful, eventful, trying, and wonderful year. I began it at Passion, which was incredible as always. I wish I were there now. 
Shortly after, I experienced a close friend’s loss of the love of her life. It was one of the hardest things I have ever experienced to see her hurt so much. I’ve seen the way that God heals the brokenhearted in the lives of His people. 
This year, I fell in love with the world of academia. I decided to not only continue to grad school, but my ultimate goal is to received a PhD in sociology and hopefully teach somewhere. I’ve learned about the process of research, and I’ve worked harder than ever. I’m contentedly proud of myself.
I’ve learned about relationships, my own heart, and what it means to be fully fulfilled by Christ. I’ve experienced life running away from Jesus, and running back repentantly to Him with everything I have. I’ve discovered the life I don’t want to have, the path I don’t want to take, and how the life I want is immersed fully in the heart of Christ. 
It’s been a journey to say that least. I’m so thankful for the people in my life and the many blessings that have been poured into it since the day I was born. 
Happy 2013.  

It’s another one of those days where I’m reminded that I may never get over you and it’s likely no one else will ever even compare.

My 21st birthday was yesterday, and I honestly have never felt so loved in my life. I have some ridiculously incredible people in my life. I’m so thankful for them.

I’m having dinner with my family this evening, and the love will keep flowing I’m sure. Thank God for 21 years of life and so many other things. To list them all would be a blog post you would never finish reading.

The semester is over and I’m one happy girl. I hope you all are great as well.